~i Feel GOOD!

Life is treating me pretty well here.
Not really sure of this feeling that keeps run here and there for me.
Not so sure that this is actually happening.
The sense of cherish in everything.
Every moments, everything that i am doing.
The walk, the talk, the eat, the sit, the run, the laugh, the thing, the sleep, everything i seem to happy and enjoy doing it.
The very bright color starts to coming (running) back to me.
I just keep on painting the day in my head. It even spreads out like the cartoon graphic in the cover of Mika's album. ;-D
Thanks to Jay as i think it is the effect from the workshop that i have joined last Sunday.
I do still question myself each day though, am i too happy and too joyful as being jobless girl here?
I really wonder. In that i think it is a good thing though. It proves that I do still think of the way to earn a living here.
Another thing for sure for the saying of 'One closed door leads to many opened ones.'
Opportunities and possibilities seem to be endless here.
Right back at me likes Jack that pop-up from the box, 'Everything can be DONE!' ;-D
Prioritize and Time management (pretty good one) I need to put myself into.

As a jobless girl, i have done...
- Sent one proposal for 1 year project to AUSAID.
- Create a group for being place to push my passion and knowledge forward. (stay tune for more)
- Participated in 5 days seminar on Women & Youth for Nation Building at TU. (joined for 2 days)
- Meetings with Board committees of Social Administration Foundation.
- Participated in NGO Connection Day with Microsoft Thailand.
- Translated 1 report doc.
- AIESEC Meetings in the role of alumni. (more than 5 times)
- AIESEC Meeting as Mentor.
- Participated in Art Therapy: Healing body and Mind through art. (Realize i do can draw abstract!)
- Walked throughout the 'Power of Youth, Power for society' in 5 malls. (Thrill to run into the Thaptawan youth group)
- 3 meetings on potential businesses in the future.
- Nagging my debtors. SHOW ME MY $$!!
- Re-connect myself with Plum Village, 2 times meetings.
- Went to Disney Fairy tales exhibition & OTOP BKK exhibition & BIG & BIH Exhibition.
- Cook for family and friends (4 times)
- Went to the family's business' Wedding function
- Many meals with international friends
- Coffee talks with good friends and junior friends.
- Revisit my favorite coffee shops, Exploring and discovering many new ones.
- Chat, Phone, Email my good friends around the globe.
- Laugh, Run, Giggle, Jump, Dance with Gut & Gam.

Many more here to list out!!
Feeling good here.
I do really feel good and much alive here!

Love u & Love me, Love myself.
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xox

Checked OUT!

"Life is a growth school. Every person and every experience come to us to teach us the lesson we most need to learn at that particular point of our journey."

Ok, I guess it's about time to update on my life here.
I have quit my work at World Vision Thailand. (Aug 08 - Sept 09)
1 year and 1 month. I have made it.
I have to say it ends nasty. Painfully hurt though. So took sometimes off and reflect on what have i got from this.
Tried my best not to be much into philosophy as some told me, so not to think too much. At some points, stop to figure out the reason why it happened. Stop trying to convince myself that there is some reason. Stop thinking that i have done something wrong. Stop bothering myself to think over and over of how's it like now, how's work, how messy, how crappy. Stop and be with myself. To realize and know my true feeling....
It takes quite sometimes. Longer than i thought. Longer than anyone can imagine. But it actually passed.
From what i have read, to learn from experiences, either we are awaken to this act of nature, or we can turn a blind eye to it and, in doing so, keep repeating the mistakes of the past until the pain becomes so great that we have no choice but to change.
I was giving up believing in ability to change. (honestly speaking)
I was having doubt and stop looking for answer.
But it all passed.
I know it's quite a ride and the thrill of on the ride will stay forever.
Saying here ..
Let's bygone be bygone.
I got MAD and now I got OVER it!

So, this is me.
Checked out!
and
here getting back IN!

Stay tune.
My energy is building up.
I am seeing changes ahead.
Feel good to getting back the control.

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Love ya,
xox