~getTinG CraZy heRe~

In this bright sunlight, i am locked in the red shade.
Wandering in the nowhere land.
Here i stand.
Step 1, step 2, step 3, stop.
Turn, nothing.
No one.
Dark. Only the sound of the heavy breeze that pressed in my ears.
Move, Stop, freeze, still.

Voices are every where.
Too noisy.
Too drama.
Too chaotic.
Seems like everyone is talking but no one can catch what is in the wind.
Words, assumptions, stories, drama, blame, confusion.
Unclear road ahead.
My question will be can u still see the road even though it's unclear?
If so, risk it.
Give yourself a chance to try to risk it.
Will i go for it?
That is my business not yours.
Either try to clear your road or just risk it.
Don't listen too much.
Don't talk too much.
Don't crate too much of assumptions.
Stay still.
Risk it.

Ask me no more.
Talk to me no more.
Stop the buzz.
It ain't any of my business.
Mind your own.
One needs to take care of oneself.
Not me.
Nor her.
Not him.
Nor them.

Heat is risen up.
People seize for something to cool down.
To cool the inside same as the outside.
The outside is easy.
Energy should be high but running opposite way.
Still.

The heat is striking through every molecules.
All gets burnt. Except me.
All gets drain out. Except me.
The Sun rises up the energy level high.
It's RED.
It's HOT.
It's FANTASTIC.
Again, abnormal i am.

They tend to
Too dry.
Too harsh.
Too sick!
Too sick of them, it is!

Step 3, step 2, step 1....
Turn, nothing.
Silence.
Bright light.
Eyes shut.
Smell the burnt.
Feel the flame.

Crazy Chaotic Summer has arrived.

...

The rotten vision of present

Hard to describe what is in me here.

At capital in the cab, drifting into the neon light through darkness here.
The feeling flies back.
Everything seems to be too fast.
On the turbo jet.
As higher expectation comes higher perfection, old habit dies hard. I say.
Still, the crack that ready to break apart is still not so ever can.
Not the outside.
It's eating inside here.

You are here aiming for what you convinced to yourself by yourself of what matters to oneself. I don't know what is much worst, to convince the others or to convince your own self.

There, not that far from you, I see lives that hunger for necessities to survive.
To live. To get pass the day of fear and question of will there be sunlight on them tomorrow.
It's not as in the lyric, not as in any written forms.
It's just there. Lives! Living creatures there.
The dryness of the drought can't compare to the thirst of living.
They are struggling to survive.
At one point, i do feel that.
At one point, butterflies are all in my stomach.
At one point, everything hurls up inside, dying to burst out.
Too dry, too mess-up, too risky, too sick!

Here you are aiming for what matters in life.
You are lucky if you are still aiming and you have still some matters to your life.

and the song goes...
'Yael Naim - Far Far'

Far far, there's this little girl
she was praying for something to happen to her
everyday she writes words and more words
just to spit out the thoughts that keep floating inside
and she's strong when the dreams come cos' they
take her, cover her, they are all over
the reality looks far now, but don't go

How can you stay outside?
there's a beautiful mess inside
how can you stay outside?
there's a beautiful mess inside
oh oh oh oh

Far far, there's this little girl
she was praying for something good to happen to her
from time to time there are colors and shapes
dazzling her eyes, tickling her hands
they invent her a new world with
oil skies and aquarel rivers
but don't you run away already
please don't go oh oh


And the she sings..
'How can you stay outside when there is the pitiful mess inside?'

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xox

~25 Random Facts 'bout me~

Rules:

Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you.
At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you. you are obviously exempt if you have already posted.

(To do this, go to "notes" under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)

Here it goes...


1. I'm generating & running on the solar-powered. When the sun goes down it's the same time as my battery fully charged for the night.

2. Bright color is my favorite: Red, Pink, Orange...

3. Convinced by Clark Kent, people who wear glasses seem to be smarter and without seems to be hunkier!

4. It's easier to smile than cry. And the sweetest sound ever is the laugh and smile.

5. Like a duck i am, can walk (English) but not pretty, can swim (Chinese) but not well, can fly (French) but not high.

6. I tend to believe and practice Narcissusism & Individualism.

7. Beside my diary, i have one blog of my own and one blog of my nephew. (feel free to be his fan here.)

8. Just can't help to say 'Left-handed' out loud when i see one. It's just so fascinate of the way and direction of letter they write. How their minds go and around.

9. With 7 continents, i have only been to 3. 4 more to go!!

10. Most of my dear friends are not near to me. That's why 4 more continents to visit!

11. Can't do the gossip as it requires soft voice. I can't do whisper nor have soft voice therefore i don't do gossip.

12. I read everything! From the book, blog, road sign, magazine, menu, at the back-front-side of all kind of product.

13. My first child will have 2 siblings.

14. Let me introduce you to Janna & Macy. (my MacBook & My CR-V) Yes, i name some of my belongings.

15. Cooking for the love ones is the sexiest activities ever!

16. I am considered to be romantic person. And i do can cook! (relevant?)

17. Talking is my kind of thing. Talking rubbish is my expertize.

18. I like my man as my coffee: Hot, Strong and Bitter-Sweet. Now i have my coffee, where is thy man?

19. I am the good deed doer.

20. I don't seem problem, i see challenge.

21. The way i walk tend to intimidate quite a few people. (esp. with my high heel)

22. Was mistaken of being, Mongolian, Korean, Singaporean, Jamaican, Indian, Chinese-born American, Malaysian, Australian, Japanese, Taiwanese but never once as Thai. Never! Oh and being mistaken as being a boy as well.

23. Red is my drink color. Pretty much into red wine & cosmopolitan @ Red sky for now.

24. I like seeing old people enjoy their life. To see old couple dance, to hold hands, to walk in the park, to shop in the mall, with their smiles and joy. Just pretty beautiful picture.

25. I am (still) afraid of commitment. I am (still) trying to overcome it. Start with the career last year. Now this year, let's try the relationship then, shall we? Okay, application is now open, people spread out the news!

Once you have read 'til here. It would be nice to give yourself a time to write and share your '25 random facts about me' You will surely enjoy as i do.

Thanks Air for this. Much enjoy and like it.




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xox