~mY camBoDia xP...

I was in Cambodia regards the work last week.
I was in the meeting.
I was there trying to my very best to practice 'Self-Control' as i am told it's one of the seven things that you should be practiced one a day. The rest of 6 doesn't really hit to me but this one.
So i tried. Believe me i was trying. (please notice the past tense!)
It does not seem to be that well though.
In most of the Hollywood movies say ...
'Some girls are not meant to be in the corner'
or
'Some girls just born to be under the spotlight all-the-time'
I just can't help it.
You know that at some point i just feel like i would like to have the courage to just keep myself low profile. (come to think of it, what the heck i was thinking!"
Refer to my previous post, i dont' think that i can lower my standard.
Surely it does not mean that i can't. It's just I don't want to.

Wiki says that it is known as natural phenomena and it can be transformed into another form, but the total level always remains the same. Wiki is talking about 'Energy'
Lately i have been told and asked many times of where does my energy come from?
And so many times i am called 'Energizer rabbit'
The words seem to be repeated and repeated several times.
It might have been there for long but i have not noticed it.
Not until i almost ran out of one...
I guess the source of my energy is from YOU.
From the people around me, near and far.
So i will just give it one more try.
To challenge myself to get the better energy to circulate around me.
To try to make the balance as well. (as my friend suggested that, Thx)
I will try.

On another part of energy that i felt so strong and much appreciate.
I have a chance to meet up with the AIESEC Expansion in Cambodia.
Super nice, energetic, passionate and bright people. It is just the moment for me to appreciate even more of how lucky i was (am) to know and be in this organization.
I guess it's true as well that you never know or realize things unless you have experienced it by yourself. Once you see the energy, the effort and their craziness in trying to do something different in the totally different extreme country as Cambodia.
I was fired up with the flame of passion and creativity and positive in their work. Jan, Jess, Dan & Krissy, Keeps your spirit high i am all with you there.

Sneak Peak of my Phnom Pehn XP to me.
- 4 whole days in the meeting (no parties!)
- Drain out my battery everyday while i was in the meeting
- Got burned from the sun light strike through my skin.
- Tears drop with no hug at the Genocide museum. (despite the fact that i know i will, i still get myself into it. Y Y Y Y i have to be that crazy?)
- Shopping shopping & shopping (again, do you think that i will miss that out?)
- Got to know and have good times with new friends. (my favorite part of all!)
- Outdoor free MTVEXIT concert of Cambodia bands with no ticket and stood there for more than 2 hrs for one US band.
- Had pretty bad 'Lucky burger' as the first one in the year. (surely the last time burger for me too!)
- Discover of how many children selling copied-books on the street that actually earn more than me on the daily basis!
- Found pretty nice coffee shop (Java Cafe') one place that you should stop and indulge in. ah.. a nice sip of the Red-eye.
- So many of the value things. Resto & bakery for orphanage. Resto & shop for FRIEND, and many more!
- Found the Moldova cocktail there. (fyi, i dont' think in MD, ppl do fancy of cocktail though) and got into Cosmopolitan in ORANGE! I know i know Carry and the girls will definitely angry with me on this. Sorry girls.

That's pretty much for now.

Still on the solar power charging here.
(but i think my solar cell just burnt out from the super sunlight from Cambodia)


Stay tune for more craziness on this festive time of the year.

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xxx

~qUiZ tiMe~

Question:
"Will you lower your perfection down so you wont' hurt so much when you fall?'

I can't seem to be able to find the answer here.
One side, you can't be perfect in this imperfect world. (i thought i could, once i landed in the real world then i got that answer)
Another side, why do you do so?
Why do you still put yourself into that position that in order to be perfect you need to put more than 150% of yourself into it.
Is it just because you will feel better off doing so.
For me that is only physically, on mentally is another story.
YOU know that you can BE better.
YOU know that you can DO better.
But it's just too tiring!!!
Why is that so?
Why is this reality exist?

I am in this exam room with nothing in my brain but blank.
It seems to happen quite often here.

Question:
"Will you risk going in the game where there is quite challenging competition?"

Professional wise answer: YES
Personal wise answer: NO
It is just like that for me.
When it comes to the personal issue.
I am just in this insecure cube that fragile that need to handle with care.
It might be true that getting older you dont' only gain ages but more chicken as well.
.....*sigh........

Too many question here.....
Where will thy and my answer be??

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xox