~oN thiS waiTinG~

While spending 30 mins of waiting for the bus, i tried my best to convince myself that using the public transportation here is one ways to save the planet. (of coz later i do think, who am i kidding at?)

The movie "Babel' flashed into my head.
The concept of everyone is connected one way or another in this world.
Human, object, plant and so on.
How's that feel then?
Great, of coz. As far that i know people do long for being a part of something.
I know that i am one of them.
The fact that people out there is trying to find the other part (better or worse, who's know?)
Still, they are in the searching.

so ... burrr......the bus passed by without notice that i was there waiting.
Try not to feel that just because i'm not the regular so they didn't stop.
My thought continues...

Kept on thinking... if one is connected to another.
i missed the bus might resulted in fainting of the heat and the tiredness in me and there would be the prince charming who loves to create the better world, also waiting for the bus and rescue me.
..No, didn't happen...

i missed the bus so i missed putting my feet in the tub and soak myself after the long tiring day which will result in saving more water and for the better world.
Yes, did happen.

i missed the bus so i have more time to just let my head spinning and spinning of what to write here.
Yes, did happen but 'till today that put this on.

i missed the bus and the world does not stop spinning around. I am still me and the world is still moving on.
Yes, did happen.

The thought kept on moving of the fact that one action will resulted in many consequences whether it happens or not.
To me, what matters is not to think of 'what if' but to think of 'what next'

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xxx



Photo taken from flickr.com

~inTimiDatiNg mE~

As lately i have an opportunity to work among Thai here.
Meet up with the new people, in the different working environment, fun!
Plus it does really spice a bit of my so boring jobless routine.

Anyway, interesting fact comes out that I, yes, Me, Weaw, do actually really intimidate (Thai) guys.
Well, this is not the first time hearing though.
In the past, it's more of related to the work and being professional.
So i thought that i have developed. (well, we need to think of that again, ain't we?)
Here i know that i am being just myself on the project. Enjoy the work, the sharing idea and the talk.
Still, i got to know that two out of the two guys that i work with, kind of afraid of me.
Yes, that's the exact word 'afraid'.
With the giggling and joking in a way of me asked 'Why?' 'What?' 'Me?' 'Come on!'

Well, here to think of it. hummm...
They said that for the girl who seem to be able to get to what the guy is thinking (ME!) or on to what they are doing (ME!), is kind of make them afraid and intimidating them in a way. (ME ME ME ME ME ME!!)
Truth be told here. I do try this time to hold back of the ideas and the opinion.
Not to be outsmart and do listen to the idea and give opportunity to others. (yes, i do and i'm still trying)
Still, like i am having the quicksilver shade on all the time.
Intimidating!

Then, i can't help to think of it though...
"Do girls need to pretend to be stupid or naive to be more adorable and lovely?"
Is that what people want? To have someone pretend to be someone that ain't they.
Is that what the smart & confident girl need to give up to in order to have the relationship or the man in her life?
Then what will leave for her then?
In order to have the life with relationship, she has to give up
a) myself
b) ....

what left? Nothing but blank. Not even the man what she leaves herself to.

Hard and tough life on being the smart girl in this world, i'm talking here.
So, people stop calling me and asking me things.
I am selling out my brain.

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xxx

~HeLp is NeedEd~

I have received this mail last week.

Andrea said:

"My best Cambodian friend's aunt, "Mom," was recently diagnosed with breast cancer. Beyond the emotional impact her illness has had on her and her family, the cost of her treatment is causing them to plunge into debt. Her inability to work has also put her daughters at-risk of dropping out of school. More details are attached.

Since my mom had breast cancer several years ago, it's been an issue that's near and dear to my heart. Seeing first-hand what "Mom" has had to go through to get good treatment (including 300 mi trips to and from the hospital!) makes me realize how fortunate my mom was to have immediate access to good health care.

I will be visiting "Mom" in July to offer financial support for her treatment. Please see attached details if you, too, would like to make a contribution. Please feel free to pass this on to others."

Thanks much,
Andrea
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I would like to help in fundraising for this.
As one of my dearest has experienced cancer, i know how does the disease effect people around.
As I know that this can happen to me or any female friend of mine, i would like to help as much as i can.

Dear friends, if you are reading this and would like to help.
Let me know.

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xxx

~juSt liKe tHis~

Having this inside of my head in this morning.
The words in bold that hit me.
It sure hit me hard!!
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Tire Swing ~

I took the Polaroid down in my room
I’m pretty sure you have a new girlfriend
it’s not as if I don’t like you
it just makes me sad whenever I see it
cuz I like to be gone most of the time
and you like to be home most of the time
if I stay in one place I lose my mind
I’m a pretty impossible lady to be with

Joey never met a bike that he didn’t wanna ride
and I never met a Toby that I didn’t like
Scotty liked all of the books that I recommended
even if he didn’t I wouldn’t be offended

I had a dream that had to drive to Madison
to deliver a painting for some silly reason
I took a wrong turn and ended up in Michigan
Paul Baribeau took me to the giant tire swing
gave me a push and he started singing
I sang along while I was swinging
the sound of our voices made us forget everything
that had ever hurt our feelings

Joey never met a bike that he didn’t wanna ride
and I never met a Toby that I didn’t like
Scotty liked all of the books that I recommended
even if he didn’t I wouldn’t be offended
…wouldn’t be offended


now I’m home for less than twenty-four hours
that’s hardly time to take a shower
hug my family and take your picture off the wall
check my email write a song and make a few phone calls
before it’s time to leave again
I’ve got one hand on the steering wheel
one waving out the window
if I’m a spinster for the rest of my life
my arms will keep me warm on cold and lonely nights

Joey never met a bike that he didn’t wanna ride
and I never met a Toby that I didn’t like
Scotty liked all of the books that I recommended
even if he didn’t I wouldn’t be offended



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xxx

~iN whAt I dO~

Several interesting conversation regards jobs dilemma that i am engaged in lately.

I'm talking about the trend of we should not settle for anything less than doing what we love.
For me it is always true about this but lately become more fashionable, i guess.

Do whatever you love, and the money will follow. (might be too delay or too slow. I do keep hope that it will, someday)
We tell ourself that life is too short to spend our working hours doing anything less than the ideal, and we continue the search for the perfect workplace. The danger is that if our quest for ideal work focuses us on the future, we will miss the amazingly wonderful life that is available today, in this moment.

That is what I do believe. Anyhow on the conversations that i talked into show me that the real world there are conditions which prevent us from chasing the perfect, ideal job. Truth to be told (several several times to me, i know)

In my response to those conversation would be how can we find or invent the deep source of energy, creativity and passion that exists inside each of us to learn how to love what we do, even if at the moment we may not be doing exactly what we love.

Glad to know that i'm not the only one in this.
Not so glad to know that i need to admit that fact.
Super glad to know that I am learning and trying the way to love what I am doing (yes, even though it's not exact what i love)

Breathe people, you are alive!
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xxx