Wednesday, September 26, 2007

~ niCe to mEet U ~

"It is important to let certain things go.

To release them. To cut loose.
People need to understand that no one is playing with marked cards;
Sometimes we win and
Sometimes we lose.

Don't expect to get anything back,
Don't expect recognition for your efforts,
Don't expect your genius to be discovered or
Your love to be understood.

Complete the circle.
Not out of pride, inability or arrogance,
but simply because whatever it is no longer fits in your life.
Clost the door,
Change the record,
Clean the house,
Get rid of the dust.

STOP being who you were and
become who YOU ARE. "

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On the celebrating of knowing her - The Zahir
Thank you for entering, inspiring and accompanying during this weakening moment of mine.

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xxx

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

~JuSt a LucKy oNe~

I'm a lucky girl as ...

I have just got my super belated birthday present. Nice dinner and cool show here in the city of angels.
Merci beaucoup, mon chou.

I'm a lucky girl as ...
I have dears to call and cry to even when it's 2 am their time. And still manage to smack my head back to my senses.

I'm a lucky girl as ...
I have dear to call and listen to when i feel like there is the need even though it's 2 am in my time. I'm glad that i can at least be of help.

I'm a lucky girl as ...
I have the sister that speaks her mind which are not the things i want to hear but i should better listen to.

I'm a lucky girl as ...
I have such a dear mom that seems to just love me and never give up trying to understand this complicated crazy feeling of mine.

I'm a lucky girl as ...
I have my nephew who just loves to repeat eveything i said and done. And he surely can take me out from any state of mind that i am in and long to get out.

and..
i got the room to my own again...

I'm such a lucky girl.
That is just me.
The lucky girl, I am.

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xxx


Monday, September 24, 2007

~GraY is NoT my cOloR~




One of the most frustrating things in life is the issue of temptation and sin.
On the one hand, we know that as we are saved and we are being transformed into the image of human, we are blessed.
Yet on the other hand, we continue to fight our human lusts, whether for money, sex, power, or something else.

The mechanics of temptation and sin are simple. The great tempter, uses deceit to convince us that our flesh-driven desires are NOT in conflict with good desires for us.
As humans, we have a built-in fascination with sin. We love to see how close we can get without actively sinning. And once we have been tempted and have given in to sin, we seem to be even more susceptible to Satan's influence. Our society makes it even easier by displaying - even celebrating - sin, obviously everywhere.

Sins in today's life seems endless, but surprisingly, each one stems from one of only seven roots.
The Seven Capital Sins, seemingly obsolete, and almost never been brought up, have given rise to every world evil since the beginning of time.
From ANGER comes discrimination and racism.
Theft and burglary are the products of ENVY or COVETOUSNESS.
LUST is the cause of adultery, the degradation of women, and many more evils.
SLOTH, GREED, and GLUTTONY can contribute many more sins and problems, from poverty to alcoholism.
All of these sins are lethal, but the very worst Capital Sin is the one from which all other sin stems.
The sin of PRIDE was the first sin ever; the sin of the rebellious angels, and the sin of Adam and Eve in the Garden.

By mentioned those not as that I have been tempted or committed myself (not lately though).
More of what i have witnessed or heard or be around those sinners.
It's breaking my heart and cracking my head when came to know of those.
Surely everyone is the sinners, no one is exception.
It's more of you never realise or really take into own-self if those are not your friends, your relatives or your love ones.

I am in the grey area where i once denied of its existence.
The consequences that happen are bitter.
Not only the one that got defeated by those sins but the people around them are also suffered.
Now by not knowing right or wrong. Left or right. Up or down.
Ignorance or get involved?
What should be my next move?
Where does the answer lie beneath?

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xxx

Thursday, September 20, 2007

~BottOmlEss Sea of MiNd~

Whatever that happens, it does for the reasons. I believe in that saying.
Lately there are too many things that keep running and running in this big head of mine.
It's getting crowded. Too pack and too exhausted.
Somehow feels like it does ages me down!!

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Life is one big test. Sometimes you just need to take that risk, dear friend of mine siad.
Risk - I used to know her very well. We used to have good time and not that good time together. But surely it's fun.
Time passed and now we become stranger. Scare and afraid to be near or know her.
That is life. People say.
But to be not-so-like others, i guess i try to convince that i am not afraid.
Well, defeat to my human alike, i did admit that i am afraid, scare and becoming like ordinary.

'What's wrong with being ordinary?' Another big head on the other side shouted.
It makes me think... there is not seem to be anything wrong but it also doesnt' feel right neither....
Strange... awkard... confuse....


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Do you think you know yourself well? I do (without any pause)
Do you still think you know who you are? I do (... one pause)
Do you really think you know who you are? ....
Well, now do you still really think you know youself? I don't know anymore ...

Personality test. I think it's there to help you to find out more of who you are.
How many time should you do it?
I used to think that not that many.
It's you. It's all about you. You should know yourself the best.
Well, not seem to be always true anymore.
Living nowadays, there seem to be many tools to make your life comfortably and even more. This is also one of those.
To figure out who you are. Or to help you know who you are. Or to help find out that who that you are hiding inside?
It's the reminder. Like sms or on the facebook. Saying ... You seem to be lost track or performance of truely you.
You passion is getting low. Still, it's the matter of how often do you check yr msg or yr status.

Have you checked with yourself lately?
Do you think you know yourself well?

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xxx