~inFectiOus FeeLinG~

Just a little freak out when i seem not to be able to log in to the website.

But it's just wrong password. ha ha silly me.
Then [ ? ] arises, should we tell someone your password to things?
I remember once out of the blue i couldn't remember the passward to access my laptop. Spooky, yeah? The entire information and everything... practically my life was in it?
I banged my head up and down for almost the entire morning to finally figure it out. **relief**
Still spooky though. brrrrr....

As my dear friend said that "Happiness is an infectious feeling!"

Hear me this, it comes when i took the children from the community that i used to volunteer with last year to see DisneyOnIce - Finding Nemo. It's such a lovely feeling. Eventhough i didn't do that much but the feeling to see the big smiles and how excited they were, that makes the stars shine again in this gloomy sky of mine.

To think back of that feeling, i just love you all to be with me. Just can't stop smiling. The feeling of fulfill just filled me in.

- 2 of the 31 naughty kids - - Enjoying the snack and the nice pink hat -

PopCorn seems to be Popular. Ironically to say that it's the only thing that they can afford in the show. Things with Nemo on it cost more than their 1 month lunch cost!

Just in time that i need this small delightful feeling.

-x-

MoRe frM mE~

All i know is everything is not as it's sold
but the more i grow the less i know
And i have lived so many lives
Though i'm not old
And the more i see, the less i grow
the fewer the seeds the more i sow ...

Then i see u standing there, wanting more from me
And all i can do is try
Then i see u standing there
Wanting more from me
And all i can do is try

I wish i hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real ppl are really not real at all
The more i learn the more i cry
As i say goodbye to the way of life
I thought i had designed for me.

Then i see you standing there, wanting more from me
And all i can do is try
Then i see u standing there
i'm all i'll ever be
But all i can do is try .. try ...

- Nelly-

How long i have to?
More importanting ..
How long i will be able to ??

-x-

~jOb DiLemMa~

My friend of the EAST said
'It's the luck'
'It's not the time'
'You need to go to temple to get blessed'

My friend of the WEST said
'It might be becoz you didn't package well of your experiences'
'You didnt' sell yourself well'
'You need to repackage and rewrite your application kit'

This is pretty cool information I have received lately.

-xxx-

~a DuCk i aM~

"Just because you didn't speak the facts out loud, didnt' erase their existance.
Silence was just a quieter way to lie..."
-the fountain head-

I rise up with this phrase in my head and lay down with it as well. So i shouldnt' continue keep silence then.

Well, from the last post all can see that now the trouble has already entered my room after the knocking and the hard banging on my door. And it STAYs. There is no sign of the leaving yet as well.

Somehow i just lost my ability to decide again. Can someone give me the chain so i can tie it up with me always? Since i dont' seem to have difficulty with my financial here. I have roof to cover my head and food to fill in my tummy every day. That seems to be enough, doesn't it? Then i asked myself every freaking minute, is that enough? To most of my friends' surprise that how long i am staying still. Where has that so-energetic-ME gone? I dont' know as well. She seems to be around up and down aimlessly, doing random things. Organise the trips and parties, volunteering some stuffs, having meetings, talking and talking and getting even more involved with AIESEC still. It seems to be so random and aimless. How come i put myself in this?

I am a duck. I can walk - but not quite straight. I can swim-but not quite fast. I can fly- but not quite high. I seem to be able to this bit and that bit but not quite good in anything.

'It is possible that everyone has 2 faces;
some of us just did a better job of hiding it than others.'

How many do i have? & Who am i hiding from?
I dont' know...

How many do you have? Are you hiding? Do you know??


xxx