~coNtrasT in ME~

"I don’t want previous Thai alumni. I don’t think they were good AIESECers if they didn’t ensure sustainable local leadership development. It is exactly because of them we need to go through all the ‘hassle’ today."

"You have been creating the impact on me since the first day I knew AIESEC, the first meeting at TU 2003, till the latest MC meeting yesterday. so TODAY, I choose to be back in AIESEC and I commit that i do my best on it."

Honestly, i felt angry and sad to read the first one.
And i want to jump so high, smile and be happy when i read another one.
But i can't, i wish i can but i just .. can't.
There seems to be some contrast in those two sentences. But both is about me. (aka. Thailand alumni)
Interestingly one is from AI- the leader in the global arena where i believe that everyone in my country look up to.
Another one is from the current leading team of my own country.
Both are in the same organization that i love the most, AIESEC.

What is the different of AIESEC and AIESEC Thailand?
My leader seems to be heard a lot of saying "that is not AIESEC"
I have been told that the way we are recruting or getting the leader for AIESEC Thailand is not the AIESEC's way.

It makes conflict in my head now.
HUGE Questions occur.
Did i make AIESEC Thailand so bad?
Was I doing wrong all the time?
Is what i am doing is good or what i am doing is gonna make things worse?
Am i qualified as being good AIESECer? am i??

What to do to be able to fully said that
"I was a Good AIESECer and I am a GOOD AIESEC alumni?"

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xxx

~ the 'F' word~

Let's re-define this "F" word.
Not that one.. This one.

Paul McKenna argues that “…‘failure’ is an attitude, not an outcome”.
It is more related to your perspective rather than actual results.
He describes how after his 700th unsuccessful attempt to invent the electric light, Thomas Edison told a reporter, “I have not failed seven hundred times. I have not failed once. I have succeeded in proving that those seven hundred ways will not work. When I have eliminated all the ways that will not work, I will find the way that it will work.”

If you’ve ever been labelled a failure, you’ll know how bad this feels and even experiencing an event you give that name is traumatic.
So why not eliminate this word from your vocabulary?
Instead you could have not yet succeeded, had a learning experience or achieved a different outcome from that intended. This is not taking away your powers of analysis or ability to make clear decisions, it is minimising the emotional baggage and judgements connected with this 'f' word.

We act on what we believe to be true.
Someone who thinks they have already avoided success is likely to be more apprehensive at their next attempt, they might talk about their previous attempt and let this past negativity leek out into the present,
they might carry along upsetting feelings such as disappointment, guilt, anger and of course they’ll be under even more pressure to succeed this next time.
All this is avoidable by taking a different perspective of the previous situation.

So what if you’ve already given a negative label to some past event?
First consider it from different perspectives, what did you gain from the experience?
What did it prevent you from having to do/face?
What lessons have you learnt for the future?
How would you do things differently next time?
Then let go of any negative feelings you attached to the event, you could give yourself an affirmation to help with this. For example ‘I’m a millionaire in training.’
Practice makes perfect!

xxx

Meet My GUT!

Meet My GUT!
Originally uploaded by weaw.

Name: GUT!!
(pls say with attitude, GUT!!)
Date: Sat 25th Feb 06
Time: 20.38
Sex: Boy
Weight: 2.98 kg
Lenght: 49 cm.
Delivery: Naturally
Place: Bangkok Hospital - Thailand

He's now officially the prince of my family, my nephew. I can't imagine how a little boy can make so many adults busy 24-7. Really amazing.

It's really exciting though to wait in front of the labour room with my family. The little heart beats, super loud scream, the longest hour. Then, the cutiest boy ever is out. Cool feeling indeed.

Some said they have my lips, what da ya think?
If so, beware girl he is going to be a good kisser one ;-)

xxx