Checked OUT!

"Life is a growth school. Every person and every experience come to us to teach us the lesson we most need to learn at that particular point of our journey."

Ok, I guess it's about time to update on my life here.
I have quit my work at World Vision Thailand. (Aug 08 - Sept 09)
1 year and 1 month. I have made it.
I have to say it ends nasty. Painfully hurt though. So took sometimes off and reflect on what have i got from this.
Tried my best not to be much into philosophy as some told me, so not to think too much. At some points, stop to figure out the reason why it happened. Stop trying to convince myself that there is some reason. Stop thinking that i have done something wrong. Stop bothering myself to think over and over of how's it like now, how's work, how messy, how crappy. Stop and be with myself. To realize and know my true feeling....
It takes quite sometimes. Longer than i thought. Longer than anyone can imagine. But it actually passed.
From what i have read, to learn from experiences, either we are awaken to this act of nature, or we can turn a blind eye to it and, in doing so, keep repeating the mistakes of the past until the pain becomes so great that we have no choice but to change.
I was giving up believing in ability to change. (honestly speaking)
I was having doubt and stop looking for answer.
But it all passed.
I know it's quite a ride and the thrill of on the ride will stay forever.
Saying here ..
Let's bygone be bygone.
I got MAD and now I got OVER it!

So, this is me.
Checked out!
and
here getting back IN!

Stay tune.
My energy is building up.
I am seeing changes ahead.
Feel good to getting back the control.

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Love ya,
xox