Wake up Call!

This is frightening me.
For what i have seen or experienced just now.
I went to the prostitution area here in southern part of my country.
Even though, i was told not to go there.
Even though, i was told of what it looks like.
Even though, i was not feeling or wanting to go.
I went.

It's unlike anything i have imagined it be like.
Calls me naive or optimistic, but i never think that this actually happens to another human being, esp. to these young girls.
It looks like a shack, crammed into the long house connected in many wooden rooms.
There are around 28-35 young girls calling out 'Daddy, Daddy u want me?'
I was afraid.
I could not look into the alley, just glance.
My brain did not function well.
I was ashamed.
I was so embarrassed.
I wish not to continue to walk nor see anything else.
But i got smack on my head with the saying 'Weaw, come on look up, walk in. Don't be embarrassed, this is your own country!'

Then, i got back to my senses (still shaking)
I walked into the alley, to see their living condition.
Not good, not good at all.
It is not considered as any living condition.
I was frozen.
I could not move.
Not to know where to look and where not to.
Scared. I was.
Scared of knowing how sick this world is.
Scared of the fact that i can't do any help for those young girls.

I could not utter any words.
Shocking i was.
Shaking i am still.
I'm glad i went there.
I know that i should not.
I know now that i need to be stronger (mentally and physically) to protect and fight for them.

.....
Morning ..
Woke up with the feeling still in me.
Woke up to face that this is what i actually saw with my own eyes.
As they said 'Seeing is Believing'
Now i feel it.
I know it's not to compare to what those girls are like.
At least, a single tiny bit of that already afraid me.
I need to be stronger (mentally and physically)
I know that i need to.


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