~oN thE waY dowN...

Life likes a roller coster i may say..
It gives you the trill of going up and just right next second you got your down.
Couple weeks that i have been on the ride here.
As repeated many times as i may here, i am against the feeling of getting use to the thing that you don't enjoy just because that is what the way it is.
It it ain't do any good, change it. No matter how hard or how long will it take.
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I encounter the spot that i wish not to be in and never get use to it in my work place.
Politic!
As much the sky tries to ease the heat of the politics in my country, it still spreads out like the bad disease into my bubble.
There is the task given. It's filled with the more than 100% of my energy as my first task. Excitement, Joy and tiredness.
Then there is (was) hope. To be able to visit the unknown and at the same time one love of your life.
Epinephrine pushes my endorphin super high.
Then, BAM!!!
I was knocked out my the saying of 'You understand me, yeah?" Are you okay?'
My reaction with anger and my almost-tear-drop smile 'it ain't okay'
In the professional side is the disappointment of not be able to be there to help getting the voice of youth out and help make it be heard.
Just only hope that it ain't gonna be that bad for the kids to enjoy the 2,000+ delegates with my boss and my boss' boss.

Besides that.. is just
Like the little kid that was given the promise for the present that she always wishes for, then got taken away.
It aint' okay, i repeated.
Anger rushes in.
Disappointment invades.
Unable to let go the frustration, but trying (so hard)
Bottom-line, no more Brazil, no more fingers and toes crossed for Rob and Me.
Too bad dear.
Just too bad.

Still trying to shake it out of my head.

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xxx