~a DuCk i aM~

"Just because you didn't speak the facts out loud, didnt' erase their existance.
Silence was just a quieter way to lie..."
-the fountain head-

I rise up with this phrase in my head and lay down with it as well. So i shouldnt' continue keep silence then.

Well, from the last post all can see that now the trouble has already entered my room after the knocking and the hard banging on my door. And it STAYs. There is no sign of the leaving yet as well.

Somehow i just lost my ability to decide again. Can someone give me the chain so i can tie it up with me always? Since i dont' seem to have difficulty with my financial here. I have roof to cover my head and food to fill in my tummy every day. That seems to be enough, doesn't it? Then i asked myself every freaking minute, is that enough? To most of my friends' surprise that how long i am staying still. Where has that so-energetic-ME gone? I dont' know as well. She seems to be around up and down aimlessly, doing random things. Organise the trips and parties, volunteering some stuffs, having meetings, talking and talking and getting even more involved with AIESEC still. It seems to be so random and aimless. How come i put myself in this?

I am a duck. I can walk - but not quite straight. I can swim-but not quite fast. I can fly- but not quite high. I seem to be able to this bit and that bit but not quite good in anything.

'It is possible that everyone has 2 faces;
some of us just did a better job of hiding it than others.'

How many do i have? & Who am i hiding from?
I dont' know...

How many do you have? Are you hiding? Do you know??


xxx