~miGht noT be tHe rigHT tiMe~

Definately should not be the time for me to write this up.
It's almost 2 am. after the party and i'm drunk.

Still i feel like writing though.

Lately, i am in the position of not really know the exact line of where should i be for communication. I mostly be just in the end of both sides, extreme silent or extreme talking.
At some point i just feel that i need to express myself. I just can't seem to be able to stop talking.
Yes, it seems to be me totally of being non-stop talker. For the truth, sometimes i feel like i can't even stand myself. I just want to know how to shut myself up. So far that doesn't seem to work though.

At the same time (lately), i'm also put myself very deep into my thought. Not only when i'm alone though. Sometimes i just build up the wall around me, the big transparency glass wall. It will keep me for myself. Not letting me one and neither to come in. Sometimes i do afraid that i will like it so much and stay in there too long. I just dont' want to be like the person that act likes s/he does care of thing around but actually doesn't. I am so fear of becoming that!!

Just would like to learn the point in between for that line.

Love ya,
xxx

Capture of the day:
"If you believe in love at first sight, you will never stop looking."
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Movie: CLOSER


Weaw J.