~ The story of the GIRL~

Here is the story goes.

Yesterday was the first day for the MAN to get his first shot to fight the bad disease. For the first time in the GIRL's life this always-Heman to her was this weak. There was no tear drop. For the GIRL doesn't feel like to or for reasons that stay unknown. For the moment the GIRL thought for herself "Don't Cry, else the LADY will feel weaker and more unsecure. Dont' Cry. Cant' cry" The GIRL stayed at hospital with them for two nights. Took the days off. GIRL tried so hard not to fall sleep throughout two nights. Feel pity for the LADY for the GIRL knows from this day onwards it's bye bye the full night sleep for her... for them.

It was Friday last week that the GIRL knew about this.
It's called Non-Hodgkin's Lymphoma.
The MAN is in the Stage IV. The GIRL prefers to call the extremely red stage.
It's all blur and confuse. There is no symptom at all. No sign or anything that leads or makes any clues to that.
True that from time to time the MAN gets tired but it's normal for the GIRL as he's getting old and he has his own disease, not one but several.
As everyone says, life is unfair but again that is life.

The GIRL doesn't know who to turn or talk to...
The Family then??.. the GIRL thought. For the fact that they are the perfect to talk and to express her feeling with.
The GIRL is confused. Somehow, the worriedness and the stress in each person have stop her from doing so.
"What does the GIRL fear of?" "Fear of talking this issue out loud or Fear of the more the GIRL talks the more stress the LADIES will be?"
These questions still there.. for the GIRL not know the answer.
The GIRL knows she dares not talk to friends that much for fear of being pity by them.
The GIRL hate that feeling.

Several months that took for the GIRL to decide on her job, on what to do with her life.
For the all best, the GIRL decides to work in Bangkok.
For this time, how to make it win-win when at the end there is noone feel like winner.
It just can't be...

Thanks DEARIES for being such good companions.
The GIRL cherishes that from near and far.

Just dont' know what to think now.. for the GIRL

for now ..May all the strength be with the FAMILY.

Love you all,
the GIRL
29 Nov. 04