~OveRfeD wT coNfuSioN~

Life is full of the unexpected things, dont' you think so?

I found one artical about the Journey of Self-Discovery at the time that I am overfed with the confusion. It says...

We all begin this journey through life as innocent babies, instinctively expressing our needs, in a relaxed and natural way. All too quickly we are conditioned to be "nice" and "good", and made to understand that as long as we follow the "rules", our lives will unfold in positive ways. Sooner or later, something occurs in our lives - a loved one leaves or dies, or we get a fatal disease, or in some way we feel cheated or betrayed and we learn that, try as we might, we cannot control life.

I begin asking questions, searching for the answer, discovering my unique individuality. Begin to investigate my usual beliefs and judgments, seeking the truth, not so much by following others, but by daring to be honest with myself. Still, i dont' think i am brave enough to do so. How do I come to know my truth? Some told that people normally do that simply by stopping the "lie". Do I lie at myself? Am i capable to stop it? Can i?

Lying to myself- Am I trying to pretect my self-image by pretending that my life is perfectly under control? Now I am deep sunk in the confusion and not at all "in control" of my life, thought and feeling. Nowadays, my energy is no longer needed for daily physical survival and there is a feeling that are there more to life....my life??

I always tell myself and others that we have the choice every morning when we wake up, to live in misery or in bliss. Our minds are like movie projectors, projecting onto people and situations the movie of our own making. We can play at being victims of events or people, but it is more empowering to take 100% responsibility for how we choose to respond to events in our lives. Now.. this projector of mine is going to run out of battery.

Sink in the pond of confusion, not be able to move, knowing if stay still i will be suck in deeply ..deeply... nothing move...everything is normal .. only me that stay still.. no energy ... no battery...nothing functioning...everything shut down...brain ...feeling... pain... tear.. and sooner my unique life will be gone...

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